Category Archives: Homeless

I am tired too – a Reply

This was written in reply to a letter sent to SCN at http://www.somethingcool.ca/ which the editor forwarded to me for a reply.

I have to agree with you George, the homeless problem is getting really tiring. I too am sick and tired of the behaviours that allow this problem, not only to continue, but to grow. You know what else I am really tired of?

I am tired of 80 year old retirees ending up homeless and at the emergency shelter because their pensions no longer can cover the skyrocketing cost of housing in the lower mainland. While on the topic of affordable housing I am not only tired of, but outraged by the fact that an increasing number of the homeless work 40+ hours a week but at salaries so low they cannot afford to live in the communities they work in.

Not to mention how tired I am of a society that allows a mother and her children to have to chose to live in their car because she cannot earn enough to both pay rent and maintain her automobile – which she needs to get to work.

I am tired of seeing the mentally challenged and those with special needs fall through the cracks onto the streets and into the emergency shelter. I am sickened by the difference in quality of life between those with challenges and special needs who are fortunate enough to get access to the limited funds and programs society condescends to provide and those who find themselves alone and at the mercy of an indifferent system.

I am tired and appalled by the numbers of mentally ill people wandering the streets, many ending up in addiction as they self medicate. I am tired of the holier than thou attitudes taken by many people towards those who suffer the scourge of addiction and people who usurp the Deity’s role/sole right to judge a person. I worry when I find myself thinking along the lines of “s/he is nice and deserves help; s/he is such an a*s that they do not deserve consideration and to be treated with humanity”.

I am tired of watching the indignities and hardships inflicted by the behaviour of the MEIA office in Abbotsford as contrasted with the behaviours with offices in other parts of the province. I am tired of a system that is focused on denying help to those we feel don’t deserve help, to the point where it denies badly needed services to those truly in need of aid.

I am tired of politicians and a public that would rather, happily, spend $150,000 a year to throw someone in jail, than to invest $15,000 a year in getting that person sober, mentally well and an opportunity to live a life of their own design. I am tired of a system of recovery and rehabilitation that is demonstrably not accomplishing the positive outcomes it should, but to which politicians, bureaucrats and much of the public cling. I m tired of local politicians who say the right things but do nothing worthy of note and whose actions reveal their words to be nothing but political bafflegab.

I am tired of a society that whines about the decline of morality and spiritual values as it steps over the homeless sleeping in the street, turns it back on seniors, children, families, mentally ill, mentally challenged, the working poor, growing economic unfairness, wages inadequate to sustain life, ….

I am tired of all that and more. Which is why I write to Fred about homeless happenings in Abbotsford. Because the homeless issues in Abbotsford are issues across our country; important societal issues that we must address and that say a great deal about just what type of society we really are.

It is why I advocate for those who so desperately need an advocate and a voice. Why I created http://www.homelessinabbotsford.com/; I write to our local, provincial and national press; I get in the face of the Georges of the world, so they at least have to work at hiding their heads in the sand; it is why I have to move by the end of this month; it may very well be why I had to suffer mental illness, an old life lost, homelessness, recovery and a new, very different than expected life.

I am tired of it, so I work to be an agent of change.

You are tired of all this homelessness stuff – what are you doing to redress homelessness and other social ills?

You can stop bitching and work towards solutions and positive outcomes ( ‘cause if you have time to bitch about a problem, you have time to do something about the problem); or you can bury your head in the sand in order to ignore the problem and stop bitching; in either case (do something, do nothing) stop bitching.

Oh, and if you want pabulum masquerading as real news and issues, I suggest you try the mainstream press.

Pancake Breakfast Returns

It was good to see the Abbotsford Pentecostal Assembly pancake breakfast recommence after its summer hiatus. Thank you to the Pastor and his assistants.

Two observations I feel compelled to advance for consideration.

With respect to the decision not to send the bus around to pick up those needing transportation to get to the APA, thus avoiding the wrong sort of needy from partaking in your pancake breakfast and as a consequence limit attendance to those deemed worthy of your aid: I wonder just what Christ would have to say to you, and others in our community, about limiting charity and good works done in His name to only those you judge worthy?

My second observation set me to wondering if, as nice as the food is, it the opportunity to get one’s hair trimmed that draws many to the breakfast. Before seeking food or coffee many first make sure to get their name on the list for barbering; sitting around long after having sated their appetites, for their turn in the chair(s). For the homeless and poor something as simple as a haircut is out of reach because of cost.

I have observed that it is often the little things that start people on the road to recovery, simple things like haircuts, clean clothes and showers. This is why I believe the city should not only support the Abbotsford Cares Card by providing showers but seek ways to encourage regular, daily personal hygiene as a method of encouraging recovery.

No Public Washrooms

Those who know Fred Johns or are regular readers of his weekly webzine (www.somethingcool.ca) know that Fred is, at best or at kindest evaluation, a little weird. I shared how it was I found myself filming a soiled batch of paper towels. I now share Fred’s words on this matter.Personally I am sure that, or at least I maintain, that finding myself in those circumstances is all Fred’s fault and that I am just a sweet, innocent, NORMAL bystander sucked into the twilight zone by Fred’s presence.

It was a fairly interesting set of circumstances that led James Breckenridge to be in a situation where he would be filming a patch of paper towels soiled with human waste, and yet there he was anyway. It wasn’t the first batch of makeshift toilet paper he had ever seen; what made this particular batch stand out from all the others was the fact that he had a video camera in his hand instead of paper towel himself.

It’s no secret that James Breckenridge used to be homeless. He even wrote a blog about it. But for all the posts he wrote and for all the discussions on the subject he had, nothing could quite compare with the experience of staring down at the spot where another human had wiped their ass in an open clearing just behind a popular Italian restaurant in downtown Abbotsford. No words were needed to describe both the injustice and despair that the soiled towels represented – the crap on them did that well enough on its own.

James openly admitted to being forced to do a similar thing once or twice himself. “I’ve been pretty lucky,” he said, standing a few feet from the dirtied towels. “That’s mostly due to good planning – I was always sure to be in the library or something once during the day so I could use the washroom facilities. But, I’ll admit it, there were times I had to find a bush or the dark side of a building so I could urinate and do my business.”

James isn’t embarrassed to discuss this topic, nor particularly uncomfortable, which puts him in the minority. Most people aren’t too interested in talking about how the homeless defecate, but that doesn’t mean they don’t still have to. It’s a taboo topic, one not openly discussed. Conversations about food and shelter tend to take precedence, but this doesn’t erase the physical needs of people without homes and proper washroom facilities. Homeless people are still people and as such, need to urinate and defecate like everyone else.

In Abbotsford, that’s particularly challenging. The majority of businesses in the downtown area have signs with the words “Washrooms for Customer Use Only” clearly inscribed on them. The library at Jubilee Park requires a key for entry. And there are an odd number of local gas stations that have washrooms that are suspiciously “out of order”.

Why such concern? It seems some of the local homeless seem to do nasty things while using the restrooms. “They tend to try and flush needles and stuff down the toilets,” a librarian at the Jubilee Park library said. “They mess the place up and leave it for us to clean. And it’s not safe for our workers to have to go in their and pick up needles and things. That’s why we require people to use a key.”

It’s a no-brainer too that local restaurant owners are uneasy about homeless people coming around and scaring their precious clientele. “It’s pretty simple actually,” one restaurant owner (who requested that his name and his restaurant be left out of this article) said. “People don’t come here to see homeless people. They come to eat in a friendly, fun and safe environment. They don’t want to be bothered by people who drink and use drugs so we don’t allow those kinds of people to use our washrooms.”

All fine and good for the customers, but what about the people that really need to pee, or, in safespeak, do a #2? “If you’re homeless in this town and you look it, you can try and use the public washrooms in the library,” Breckenridge said, recalling his own experiences as a homeless person. “Otherwise, you’re like the bears on those TV commercials, shitting in the woods.”

There is no shortage of working toilets along Abbotsford’s main business corridor, but few of them are ever in use. This is what irks Breckenridge so much, especially in a town with so many Christians who frequent the numerous local churches. “The Christians in this town appear to think that sleeping and shitting in the woods is perfectly acceptable for those homeless animals,” he said. “Now how Christian is that?”

Washroom facilities do exist at the local Salvation Army and people do not require a key to use the bathrooms at the Clearbrook library, way the other end of town. But the only other place in the main downtown district that would allow anyone to use their bathrooms was a tiny little comic store one street off the main drag.

“Why wouldn’t I let someone use the bathroom?” the owner of the store asked me when I told him his decision to open his bathrooms to the public was a bit of a rare one. “When you gotta go, you gotta go, right?”

Part of the reason he is so kindly is because there’s really nothing of value in his store where the bathrooms are located. “I have some .50 cent comics back there,” the owner said, “so if someone makes off with a couple of those, they’re almost doing me a favour.”

Most businesses, this owner said, do have valuable stuff near the washrooms, like merchandise and money, which is an added incentive to keep the homeless people out. “But it’s pretty safe here and I know as well as anyone what it feels like to have to go but having nowhere to do so. So I guess this is my way of showing a little community spirit.”

Now if only the rest of the community would get on board. There does seem to be a logical solution to this problem that would appease both the business owners and the homeless – public washrooms in parks. Even port-a-potties would do, wouldn’t they?

The librarian at the Jubilee Park location says that was already tried. “They had a port-a-potty in the park,” she recalled. “But then they burned it down. So now they have nothing.” She shrugged. “Whose fault is that?”

Whose fault, indeed. It’s a tough scene to imagine: it’s cold, probably dark and a homeless person finds him or herself alone with nowhere to take a crap. They have managed to scrounge up a clump of paper towel which is all they have to wipe their ass with. It’s hard to fathom the indignity a person must feel when they lower their ripped and torn pants and are forced to defecate, exposed to the world, with no privacy, the same way a coyote or a dog must.

“Thus it is that the homeless are forced to either hold it in indefinitely or urinate and defecate outdoors like animals,” Breckenridge said. “Perhaps, with even less dignity than animals considering there are businesses out there whose sole function is to clean up after people’s dogs.”

Who takes care of the human crap? Likely the homeless themselves, who are too embarrassed to leave it for someone else to find. Save for this one homeless person, who left the batch of soiled paper towels, perhaps for someone to find. And someone did find them – a journalist with a video camera and a former homeless man. As this odd pair stands above the dirty mattress the homeless person slept on and peers over at the nearby soiled towels, an idea forms. The former homeless man trudges off into the thick brush but returns a few moments later, with an item procured from a local convenience store.

“I think I’ll leave a little present,” James Breckenridge says, placing a roll of toilet paper atop the mattress. “For next time,” he says.

Youth, Drugs and Addiction

I read the blog below and the question it posed and felt the need to answer it:

I am greatly concerned about how drug use is affecting our communities. It worries me that young children are taking drugs and becoming addicted. how do we get our youth out of the pattern of drug addiction after they are addicted at for example, age 15?

As a First Nation educator I am working on changing the worldview of our youth for them to look into education as a viable option. instead of taking drugs for it could and probably would be a long road to get out of that to get back on the Red road

It is my experience that addicts – no matter what their age take drugs as an unhealthy way to deal with what, to avoid a long and involved listing, I shall simply call issues. Examples would be mental illness, the effects of growing up in an alcoholic household or environment, feelings, abuse etc.

Over the past several years I have been dealing with my mental health and growing up with alcoholism and it has and is a long, uncomfortable, often painful journey requiring a lot of effort and willpower.
Having been homeless and currently working at an shelter I have observed that those who go to treatment and get sober without dealing with the underlying issues they have, soon fall back into using.

Feel pain, unhappy, etc? The quick easy solution is to take a pill in our society. The reason so many fall back into addiction is that we do not provide the counselling and support they need to deal with their issues in a healthy manner and build good mental health habits.

Not just those with addiction either. As I worked to restore my mental wellness I observed that most of us have some kind of issue(s) that we should learn to deal with in a healthy way.

We forget or ignore the importance of the Spirit in our lives – at out peril.

It worries me that youth today seem to think the only way to party or have a good time is to get drunk or stoned. I am not claiming that when younger I and friends did not get drunk, merely that it was not the whole idea of partying to get high.
We seem to have, pretty much society as a whole, forgotten how to have fun without mind altering substances.

I recently read an article with which I agree that stated the only real “solution” to drug and alcohol problems is very long term and lies in raising healthy kids. Mentally healthy kids who when feeling sad, mad or upset have the tools and skills to deal with these negative emotions instead of turning to drugs for escape (temporary escape).
I went through a course at Triangle Resources a few years ago and was left wishing that the life skills and self knowledge had come to me as a youth.

My experiences with addicts, the mentally ill, my own mental illness (If I could and did catch the unhealthy mental attitudes and thought patterns of an alcoholic parent, then it follows that parents and society can pass mental unhealthiness on) and issues have convinced me that at the middle school level we need to have life skills courses. Imparting knowledge on anger, self esteem, that happiness is an inside job etc.

Not an easy task, but it is a necessary task if we want to raise a truely healthy and balanced generation – and end the human nissues that lead people to drugs as a dead end solution to their pain.

Emerging Abbotsford Police State?

I was leaving the Dragon Fort eatery the other day when I paused to observe an Abbotsford Police Department (APD) officer in an unmarked car stealthily wielding a camera. Looking around to see what or who was being so slyly photographed I recognized the subject of his attention as a new arrival in town.

There was something deeply unsettling about the image of an APD officer in an unmarked car surreptitiously taking photos of someone merely standing on the sidewalk.

One can understand police thinking in this matter: new face, tattooed and standing around in “that area” of the city. But understanding is not authorization agreement to or approval of this behaviour. The thought of the APD secretly photographing us is chilling, bringing to mind the behaviours of the secret police of the old communist state apparatuses and other despotic regimes.

One is left pondering the implications of this behaviour; wrestling with the morality of spying on citizens and wondering about the legality of secretly photographing any citizen.

Charter of Rights and Freedoms, privacy laws and requirements that the police obtain warrants would appear, from the behaviour of the APD, not to protect citizens from clandestine police spying in Abbotsford.

How many other pictures have the APD taken? Just how many secret police files on citizens does the APD maintain and exactly what is the purpose or use of these secret police files?

These questions and other problematic APD conduct underscores how essential it is we put in place and exercise citizen oversight and control of the APD before we find ourselves living in an Orwellian police state, living the novel 1984 with Big Brother watching our every move, seeking to control us and our thoughts.