Down into the pit of despair …. OR?

I was feeling a little frustrated or depressed Sunday morning. Or perhaps it would be more accurate to say frustration was letting depression in. I go along, day by day, pursuing my job search as a full time occupation and when no positive results occur (employment) it gets frustrating. That frustration leads to negative thoughts “This is pointless; I’ll never find work; I am really tired of this; etc.: and I feel my old nemesis depression moving in.

So Sunday morning I went to Mill Lake Park, sat on a bench and watched the geese and ducks. Landing, swimming, feeding, grooming, going about the simple daily tasks of their lives. As I slowly relaxed I could feel the tension and frustration ease and flow out of me. Recharging my batteries watching the young children enjoy the sunny day and their visit to the park. Relaxed I took a nap. My time at the park left me relaxed and calm.

Good Mental Hygiene has become very important to me these days. When I have the need to ‘stop and smell the roses’ I make sure I do. The reality of my homelessness may not have changed but my attitude to life had. One lesson I have certainly come to appreciate (the hard way) is that we have a choice in how we view things. I can view things as a mess and let depression drain the colour from my days Or I can view this time as one of transition, embrace the felling of potential and change and work to reveal what it is I should be doing.

Frustration is the enemy. Taking time out to just sit in the sun, enjoy the view and the spring time antics of the birds helps me relax and in not exactly enjoy, accept this time of transition. But PLEASE Universe, let the transition be mercifully short.

Nice work if you can get it …

“I don’t think there was any recognition of that in the budget. The best way to help the homeless is make sure they have the opportunity to find a job” Dave Hayer, MLA for Surrey-Tynehead, said Thursday the budget focuses on giving people opportunity to grow out of the lifestyle of living on the streets.

I sent the above quote to our Abbotsford Mal’s Mr. De Jong and Mr. Van Dongen asking if this was in fact the government policy and whether they agree with this policy. At this time they have not extended me the courtesy of a reply, perhaps it is that they do not view the homeless as constituents. Now I had planned to point out the ideological government doublespeak in referring to homelessness as a ‘lifestyle of living on the street’. The idiocy and ignorance of suggesting that homelessness is something one can ‘grow out of’. That before throwing the word opportunity around they might want to look up the definition:

Opportunity n. a possibility due to a favourable combination of circumstances; “now is your chance”

Chance n. 1. the unknown and unpredictable element in happenings that seems to have no assignable cause; 2. a favourable set of circumstances; an opportunity; a chance to escape.

Apparently this government’s ideology is so bankrupt of ideas that to get back onto their feet the homeless are to rely on ‘the unknown and unpredictable element’. Although how they are to take advantage of ‘a favourable set of circumstances’ when faced with barriers such as no fixed address, no telephone, no access to bathing for personal hygiene, no laundry for clean clothes, no transportation, etc I do not know. Maybe, since chance implies luck the government expects the homeless to be walking out of (their once in awhile access to) a shower, in clean, presentable, donated clothes and have an employer bump into them and exclaim “You are just the man/woman I am looking for! You’re hired!” Fat chance. I guess the homeless are just on the wrong side of the Liberal’s ideological spectrum.

But forget all that. I was reading Vaughn Palmer’s column in the Saturday March 11, 2006 Vancouver Sun about Partnerships BC. The person heading up Partnerships has a base salary of $329,000 and with bonuses can make nearly $600,000. His last salary reported by the government was $499,134. Fat cat. There are 38 employees at Partnerships BC and the budget is for an average salary of $160,000. Nice work if you can get it. Obviously these people are on the right side of the government’s ideological spectrum.

Mr. de Jong. Mr. van Dongen. Mr. Hayer. Never mind about programs that would help me and other homeless be prepared to take advantage of opportunities to get employed and back onto our feet. Forget that. How do I get one of those Partnerships BC (or similar type) jobs??? Who needs a little help when they can belly up to the public trough and pig out on fat salaries $$$,$$$. I am positive that with even an average salary of $160,000 I would have no trouble ‘growing out of the lifestyle of living on the streets’. Better yet I would not have to depend on the unknown and unpredictable whim of luck or accident. Just hand me a Partnership BC salary opportunity and I will seize the opportunity for lifestyle chance.

Carpe Diem! Carpe Pensio! Carpe Spolium!!!

QUOTE

Any profound view of the world is mysticism. It has, of course, to deal with life and the world, both of which are nonrational entities. Albert Schweitzer

Creating a new theory is not like destroying an old barn and erecting a skyscraper in its place. It is rather like climbing a mountain, gaining new and wider views, discovering unexpected connections between our starting point and its rich environment. Albert Einstein

One can travel this world and see nothing. To achieve understanding it is necessary not to see many things, but to look hard at what you do see. GIORGIO MORANDI

Letter to editor, Abby News March 16, 2006

Not a Christian city

Mar 16 2006

Editor, The News;

I have to say I am not looking forward to the casino debate. I am anticipating a multitude of letters arguing that we are a Christian community, and therefore cannot allow such a thing. I am not even going to give my opinion on the proposed casino; instead I would like to address another issue.
As a Christian who is very familiar with the Bible and the words of Jesus, I would have to argue that we are not a “Christian community.” In fact we are far from it. Just because there is a church on every other street corner, and a large population in our community attends church, that does not make us a Christian community. If you think we are such, consider the following arguments. In a Christian community the food bank would not have to beg for donations, and would never be running short of supplies. In a Christian community a youth shelter with ample beds would have been established many years ago. The one we have now took blood, sweat, tears and years, and only has space for two.

We would have a better homeless shelter. As it is, a homeless person can find shelter only two nights per month in Abbotsford. Tell me how the homeless are supposed to know which will be the two coldest nights in a month? We would also have drug rehabilitation for teens, and more for adults. There would be breakfasts and lunches provided at every school, every day for the children who come to school hungry. If you think we don’t have that problem in Abbotsford, spend a few days in a downtown school, and see how many children come without a lunch. There would be social housing provided by churches. I could go on and on.

We have no excuse for state of things in our community. Our churches are overflowing with people, and many have multimillion dollar budgets. Many have new, elaborate buildings and state-of-the -art multimedia equipment.There is no shortage of money in our churches. Why do so many leave it to the Salvation Army to take care of Abbotsford’s neediest people?In a truly Christian community, every church would be doing what the Salvation Army does. Every church should have it’s doors opened to the needy and be known for it’s social programs.

When Jesus talked about who he would welcome into heaven in Matthew 25, as he separated the sheep (those who would enter heaven) from the goats (those who would not) he didn’t commend the sheep for fighting for social and moral justice, he didn’t praise them for building beautiful churches with wonderful programs, instead, he praised them for feeding the hungry, clothing the needy, sheltering strangers, and taking care of the sick and imprisoned. Jesus said that whatever you do to the least of these, that is what you are doing to him.

If we want to be known as a Christian community, all of us need to join the ranks of those who are doing what Jesus actually told us to do. Let’s start meeting the needs of those in Abbotsford who have the least. While the needs of the least of these in our community are so wholly unmet, how dare we even begin to take a moral stand. It will only be regarded as gross hypocrisy.

S.R. Klassen
Abbotsford

Pews are full but the coffers are empty as First United struggles after 120 years

by Pete McMartin

At 11AM on a rainy Wednesday morning, a small dark-haired woman enters the sanctuary of the First United Church and, in front of the alter, begins to change her clothes.

She is carrying a towel. She looks like she has just had a shower. She slips out of the sweatpants she is wearing and puts on a new pair, and then she slips off her sweatshirt. She has a thin bare-shouldered chemise on underneath. she is thin herself. There is a small tattoo beneath her right shoulder. Her hair looks wet and she begins to comb it slowly, which, given the location, is an oddly affecting display of vanity. She takes the towel, and a quilt she has, and carefully rolls both of them up. Then she puts the wet towel in a plastic bag and places the places the towel and quilt in one of two cardboard boxes she has with her. She unearths a roll of masking tape and tapes up the box. the tearing sound of the tape echoes through the sanctuary. Then she applies underarm deodorant.

While she does this, a man sleeping near her on the alter platform wakes up and watches her. He looks to be in his 30’s and appears to be fairly well-dressed, and he wakes up groggy. He has kicked his shoes off to sleep. He doesn’t move, but stays lying where he is, and with no particular look on his face regards the woman with mild curiosity. Then he closes his eyes and goes back to sleep.

All around her there are men sleeping and women, too. They are sleeping on every one of the church’s pews and on the hard linoleum floor of the sanctuary and on the steps of the alter. The sanctuary is filled with a stifling, overpowering smell of body odour and stinking feet. One man is in a pew eating a cheeseburger and another is rolling a cigarette from the butt ends he has collected. Some people are sleeping in the pews sitting up, and some are sprawled in a nest of clothing and blankets. Some have backpacks and some have boxes and plastic bags and some have nothing at all. One man is sleeping at the foot of the church organ. A man and woman are sleeping together just off to the side, he, bare-chested and on his back, she lying on her side and curled up under the crook of his arm. She has pulled her quilt tight up against her chin as if to keep the world out.

Meanwhile, the world outside hums along. The housing market has gone mad and so has the economy, and the government bribes unions with a billion tax dollars to sign fat contracts.

First United, on the other hand is enjoying a boom of a different kind. For years, the mission a block east of the corner of East Hastings and Main has opened its sanctuary to street people so that they might sleep there and be safe during the day. They are allowed in at 8:30 a.m. and asked to leave at 4 p.m. – the longest the church can afford to keep the sanctuary open.

“For years” said Rev. Ruth Wright, the church’s executive director, “if we had 15 people sleeping in the pews we thought that we were really busy. But now, 80 or 90 people sleeping in the sanctuary is not uncommon at all and more and more of them are not the kind of people we would see before. Now we’re seeing the unemployed looking for work; a lot of forestry people, for example, whose jobs don’t exist anymore and have lost their jobs to mechanization; people who have low-level paying jobs who can’t afford rent in a city like Vancouver and are sleeping here while they try to get on their two feet; people who come to Vancouver thinking there’s lots of work but can’t get their tickets. And we’re seeing more women.”

But, Wright was asked, why aren’t these people landing jobs in this hot economy? Why aren’t the sanctuary’s numbers shrinking instead of growing?
“For some people(in the public), there’s that mentality of, ‘Why can’t these people pull themselves up by the bootstraps?’ But a lot of these people don’t have boots to pull up. Some don’t have the qualifications. And, of course, mental illness is a huge problem down here.”

The growing numbers have put a strain on First United. Last year, the church recorded a $260,000 deficit, and is predicting a similar deficit for 2006. This is a dire situation for a church that has been at that location for 120 years. Its regular congregation – most of whom travel from outside the area to worship there – has shrunk to 30 people. Its traditional sources of revenue – bequeathals and donations from people who admire the churches activism – are not what they use to be. The situation has got to the point where the church, to raise donations, is hoping to recruit 100 people to run on its behalf in this years Vancouver International Half Marathon. (To register for the run or to make a donation to First United, go to www.firstunited.ca or call 604-681-8365.)

It is money First United is going to need. On Wednesday morning, there are 85 people sleeping in its sanctuary. Business is booming.